2009, here I come....
Jan. 12th, 2009 09:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mad_andyWotcha doods, how's it hanging?
All proceeds well here at Slaymaker Towers. I'm enjoying my e-cig to the point that I no longer smoke either normal cigarettes or rollups! I'm on the lowest dose of nicotine they do, so what I'm hoping is to stabilise on this level, then drop down to the zero nicotine... then just puff as and when I need to. And look to stopping that altogether. Time frame? God knows, but as puffing away on water vapour isn't nearly as bad for me as the real fags I reckon there's no rush!
I'm getting one bloody cold after another, but that's a combination of the time of year and my body making some adjustments, I think. This too shall pass!
I used a program that![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
bella_cheval recommended, and backed up my LJ. Of course, I had to check it...funny to re-read all that stuff. And by god but I'm glad I'm out of the vet nursing game; how I didn't just flip out and do for someone - possibly myself - I have no idea. It was hell, and only distance has given me the perspective to appreciate it.
But on balance, I think I did some good there!
It just feels weird, reading all that stuff. Rambling about stuff that seems so unimportant now; hopes and dreams that became dust and nightmares. I have to wonder what I will think about my current situation two years from now....
*Shakes self*
The result for that word meme amused me. Fearless? Sometimes. But I think I'm more afraid now than I have been for a long time; not afraid enough to stop me doing anything, not like I was. But I'm afraid to trust anyone, and re-reading my journals it's not entirely surprising. But I can't let it beat me, and I won't.
So the hell with it.
After all, what have I got to lose?
All proceeds well here at Slaymaker Towers. I'm enjoying my e-cig to the point that I no longer smoke either normal cigarettes or rollups! I'm on the lowest dose of nicotine they do, so what I'm hoping is to stabilise on this level, then drop down to the zero nicotine... then just puff as and when I need to. And look to stopping that altogether. Time frame? God knows, but as puffing away on water vapour isn't nearly as bad for me as the real fags I reckon there's no rush!
I'm getting one bloody cold after another, but that's a combination of the time of year and my body making some adjustments, I think. This too shall pass!
I used a program that
bella_cheval recommended, and backed up my LJ. Of course, I had to check it...funny to re-read all that stuff. And by god but I'm glad I'm out of the vet nursing game; how I didn't just flip out and do for someone - possibly myself - I have no idea. It was hell, and only distance has given me the perspective to appreciate it. But on balance, I think I did some good there!
It just feels weird, reading all that stuff. Rambling about stuff that seems so unimportant now; hopes and dreams that became dust and nightmares. I have to wonder what I will think about my current situation two years from now....
*Shakes self*
The result for that word meme amused me. Fearless? Sometimes. But I think I'm more afraid now than I have been for a long time; not afraid enough to stop me doing anything, not like I was. But I'm afraid to trust anyone, and re-reading my journals it's not entirely surprising. But I can't let it beat me, and I won't.
So the hell with it.
After all, what have I got to lose?
